“Sometimes we get sad about things and we don’t like to tell other people that we are sad about them. We like to keep it a secret. Or sometimes, we are sad but we really don’t know why we are sad, so we say we aren’t sad but we really are.”—Mark Haddon, The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time (via avvfvl)
“One fine day you decide to talk less and less about the things you care most about, and when you have to say something, it costs you an effort… You’re good and sick of hearing yourself talk…you abridge… You give up… […] You don’t care about being right anymore.”—Journey to the End of the Night by Louis-Ferdinand Céline (via waver3r)
Realistically speaking, I still have about two more years left on my contract with the company. And it doesn’t matter where I end up I’m going to do my best to fulfill my responsibilities. Plus, I’ve spent half of my life here at YG, so more than any other place in the world this is the most comfortable place for me. And there are too many people here that I love, and I’ve known since my childhood, so it wouldn’t be easy for me to leave. But, as an artist, if the only way to improve myself were to leave this place, then I welcome that idea. I’m not talking about obtaining more fame or popularity. I’m talking about the artistic choices I have to make as a musician.
I don’t think I’m at that point yet. I have a lot of concerns about how to go about my career moving forward. But if I can accomplish all those things here, then that’d be wonderful. At the same time, I do have concerns that might not be possible here. If I feel like I’m not influencing anyone here as an artist, I’d like to notice it before someone else tells me. Then I’ll leave to pursue my own path.
On his thoughts about moving on from YG after 14 years
“Eventually something you love is going to be taken away. And then you will fall to the floor crying. And then, however much later, it is finally happening to you: you’re falling to the floor crying thinking, “I am falling to the floor crying,” but there’s an element of the ridiculous to it — you knew it would happen and, even worse, while you’re on the floor crying you look at the place where the wall meets the floor and you realize you didn’t paint it very well.”—Richard Siken (via tat-art)